July 4th and "friends"

The 4th was fun! We hung out with my future bosses and their 5 kids in Avalon. We grilled out, then ate my delicious red, white, and blue cupcakes.

Played the coolest new thing on the planet--the Wii Fit.


Played with sparklers.


And watched the fireworks from the 2nd floor. (This was the first year I didn't sweat or swat bugs while watching fireworks!)


It was fun, but I can't help thinking we invited ourselves over. It seems lately like thats the only way we hang with "friends" anymore. I'm not quite sure what it is that people dislike so much about us but it seems that we're always on the back burner, if we're even on the oven at all. I only have friends who call when they need help with a class that they would fail without me, or friends who suddenly want to hang out with me and then reveal that they/their friend/their relative needs swim lessons or a babysitter. I feel like people only hang out with me out of pity or because they want something from me. Do I have some sort of terrible character flaw that I am unaware of? Do I smell bad? Am I weird or uncool? What is the freaking problem?!?!? I'm really frustrated, and to top it all off, it recently occurred to me that it won't change anytime soon. I always figured all this crap would end when I started teaching because I'd make teacher friends, but now I'm going to work for someone where I'm the only employee--no coworker friends for me.

I guess I'll just have to learn to enjoy weekend nights at home eating frozen pizzas and watching TiVo. They're not bad, but I wish there was an option to at least enjoy the TiVo with some company once and a while.